Monday, August 2, 2010

Untitled :: WIP

Consumed like plastic wrapped meattrinkets
in a grocery store sit my writer's heart
at sleeve length atop the dungheap
others refer to as my telelogical continuity.

No real meaning in the authentic sense of all things.

Banished by unanimous braincommittee from
both Verona and Eden.
Cursed to trudge and toil in the furrows
of other mens' minds whilst expected
to spray my own with his pesticides
and pull my own nettles and buckthorn
without gloved hands.

Tender is the constant gardner of his own
plantation; brutal and swift is he toward lesser mens'
victory gardens.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Useless But Not For Long :: WIP

My future is coming on, is coming on, is coming on. My future.

What is continuity, really? This blog has a slug that dictates the authors name as if it means something. Absolutely, there are things about the author that demonstrate his ability to navigate this world with some sort of cohesive attitude and behavior. But aside from a name and a set of behaviors or specific set of characteristics that are identified by those around him as being uniquely "him," however, if you talk to a psychologist or any one of a number other other professions that study and dictate social mores and norms they fit a pattern of a wider culture and, more specifically, geopolitical location. They are, those behaviors and beliefs, in essence, not the author's own rather, they belong to the environment in which he was reared and continues to operate. The author cannot find anything about himself that is uniquely "his." Yet, he operates with authority and authenticity that he claims as his "own." "My life," he says, "is mine unto me." It is those things his broader culture or, again, more specifically, his specific geopolitical location, that really dictates what he values and sees and "right" and "wrong."

To be told he would be a loser for not doing X when he wants to do Y; and Y, according to his worldview, is what is best he and his kin even if Y flies in the face of those dictating and touting the virtuousness of X. What is correct? Is it better for the author to follow those things that allow him to operate with a sense of his own continuity or, as the often much louder and thus, sometimes more persuasive majority voice. But again, this reckons the question, what is continuity? Can one claim any sort of continuity if he is always at the whim of another's idea of what is "right" or "wrong?" It is a constant struggle to find one's own voice amidst the cacophony of liars. Perhaps, then, the question isn't "what is continuity?" rather, it is, "what is authentic?" To yourself be true, but who's truth? Does one really establish their own truth in the staccato chatter of a world who is constantly trying, in a very tyrannical way, to mandate it's own version of "right" and "wrong?" Can an authentic sense of truthful continuity ever really be found?

The author challenges those always dictating X to disclose what makes X such a better decision than Y. Can it really be done? Thomas Jefferson warned nearly three centuries ago of the tyranny of the majority; a majority, in this case the "loudest" of the voices in that staccato filled social, political, emotional, cultural and geographic vacuum we all nebulously exist. How does he who dictates the virtues and values of X thinking weigh his authentic truthful continuity against those that say Y with anything more than, "Because, that is what I think is best."

To be sure, to be human is to think and, the author chooses to take it a step further, to sit in judgment of another's thoughts. This is discourse. To shut down and refrain from discourse is tyranny. To sit in constant, self-righteous judgment and issue tyrannical dictates of what he assumes to be authentic truthful continuity makes a man shallow and cruel. Again, what makes his authentic truthful continuity the "right" authentic truthful continuity? Man's Law is his best attempt at curbing Natural Law which, by all accounts is brutish and short; Man's law doesn't attempt to dictate "right" and "wrong," it attempts to dictate what is "legal" and "illegal." In this vein let's raise the age old philosophical quandary: Is it right for a starving man to steal for himself and his family?

I am sure if you are the shop keeper you have a different perspective, a different authentic truthful continuity than the man committing the theft. Our laws, Man's Law, does not dictate who is correct or, perhaps more aptly, righteous. Our laws attempt to prop up the social value of the artificial construction (property) in the face of human needs (hunger). Though the author believes most human beings would feel obliged to say, "Let the hungry man eat," yet, the core humanist obligation always seems to fall flat in the face of tyranny, however that tyranny manifest itself. Daily, men in the United States are divested of their freedom for dispossessing the smallest amount of wealth from those that have the most.

In human relationships that exist outside the realm Man's Law, this same thing happens. Men view their daughters and wives as property and to dispossess a man of his daughter in a way that falls outside of Man's Law (or his self-righteous authentic truthful continuity) is prosecutable, not in court, but by a vindictive heart. However, outmoded this idea of ownership may seem in the face of modern feminism and critical cultural theory, their are loud factions of a minority that posit themselves as a majority simply because they can raise the loudest voice or biggest stick. This idea of the corporeal body being the site of tyrannical control can be seen in abortion protesters not only shouting terrible slurs outside of clinics but also in the violence perpetrated against doctors and those that utilize abortion services. It is governance of fear and projection of the unknown. My G-d, would never condone such practices but, a handful of people's G-d says that the use of violence and fear as a control mechanism is the ultimate authentic truthful continuity.

The vindictive heart of a man that holds onto arcane and self-righteous ideas of his own authentic truthful continuity creates tumultuous repercussions not only his life but in the lives of those he directly touches. Again, who is one man, though he is loudest minority (which makes he and others think he is the majority), to dictate the authentic truthful continuity of another?